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[04 Dec 2004|01:55pm] |
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Hey how's it going people? I haven't updated about anything real in awhile. Well last night was fun, I went bowling with Ashley, Brandon, Blake, Cara, and Clyde. You know, cosmic bowling, quarters, spin the bottle, same ol' same ol' haha jp. Carl's Jr. Subway. Yup Yup. Then back to Ashleys, went to sleep. Then Carl's Jr. for breakfast, god were fatass'. Then hung out with Danny, Shelly, and Jenny. Watched Spider-man 2 for the first time.. I didn't cry... I swear... ok maybe a little glistening tear on my cheek.. shutup already! Now i'm at my house, Ashley just got out the shower, and now I have to take one before we go hit the streets haha. Maybe while im in the shower she'll clean my room ::wink wink:: After were all done were going to head over to.. well undecided still. Just any where but here. Anyways... DECEMBER 26TH!!! wow i'm way excited! I'm going to el casa de los Skinners!!! In el Oregon!!! haha score! I know you all are jealous. I'm so excited I finally get to see my beautiful Jordy again. =) And Jensen and The Babies and The Parents!! Woo Hoo!! Wow I got my ticket and everything, wish me luck that I don't get lost in the airport...haha.. that would suck...
*LuCy*
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[20 Nov 2004|12:47pm] |
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Somebody please listen... I know people have felt this way before...
Ok this might be way emo and gay but hey whatever I need to get this out of my system...
Feel like you have something real?
Like it's right in front of you and it's yours?
Like it's the best gift ever been given to you?
And then you realize that even though you have it you can't?
Something is in between that makes it wrong?
Just because of who you are and your backround?
And even though that person say it's going to be okay it's not?
Because you can see all the signs around that say no?
Aren't you scared of all of it and just want it to go away?
And there just saying it to add another trophie on there mantle?
Ever wish you had control over things around you?
That things weren't slipping away?
All things that seem so close are really far out of reach?
Ever feel like you just want to pick you who want to be?
And what you want to be like?
Because your so unsatisified with youself?
Don't you wish that you didn't feel like this?
I do....
This silence kills the
calm. Of the night. I force an anxious patience. Counting every beat
and waiting for my turn to die. Give it up, give it up. Don't fall for
the same things. Give it up, give it up. Don't fall for mistakes that
I've made. Don't turn away. I understand your ways. Won't give it up.
It's not me your waiting for. Alright, stop waiting. It's not me your
waiting for. It's time to let go, time to let it go....
Born to be down. I think i've said all this before now. Born to be down. What good is confidence?
I tear my heart open. I sew myself shut. My
weakness is that I care to much. And my scars remind me that the past
is real. I tear my heart open just to feel.
And if you were with me tonight. I'd sing to you
just one more time. A song for a heart so big. God wouldn't let it
live. May angels lead you in. Hear you me my friends. On sleepless
roads, the sleepless go. May angels lead you in...
Stranger
than your sympathy. And this is my apology. I'm killing myself from the
inside out. All my fears have pushed you out. And I wished for the
things I don't need. All I wanted. And what I chase won't set me free.
It's all I wanted. And I get scared but I'm not crawling on my knees.
Oh yeah, everything's all wrong, yeah. Everything's all wrong, yeah.
Who the hell did I think I was? Stranger than your sympathy. I take
these things so I don't feel. I'm killing myself from the inside out.
And now my head's been filled with doubt. And it's hard to lead the
life you choose. All I wanted. When all your lucks run out on you. All I
wanted. And you can't see when all your dreams are coming true. Oh
yeah, it's easy to forget, yeah. And you choke on the regrets, yeah.
Who the hell did I think I was? And stranger than your sympathy. And
all these thoughts you stole from me. And I'm not sure where I belong.
Nowhere's home and I'm all wrong. And I wasn't all the things. I tried
to make believe I was. And I wouldn't be the one. To kneel before the
dreams I wanted. And all the talk. And all the lies. Were all the empty
things disguised as me. Yeah. Stranger than your sympathy. Stranger
than your sympathy...
Comment if you know the feelings. Or comment if you just want to make me feel a little better...
This is just me rambling...
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[11 Oct 2004|05:19pm] |
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Hey I decided it was time to update. Ok school went good today non-acedemic wise. Acedemic wise, well let's say not to shabby. I'm going bad in Spanish and English. I took the same Spanish class last year, so it should be review, but some how I messed that up. And English it's like come on I speak it! I think progress reports come out Friday, and I'm not excited at all, but am I ever? Ok well soccer practice went good today. Not a whole lot of conditioning, i was surprised. Tomorrow there is going to be more, but it's good because I need to get back into shape lol. Had two games over the weekend, went very well, won both of them 2-0 and 4-1. Car wash on Saturday, you should come it's only 5 dollars. Jordan is coming on Wednesday, that's two days, i'm pretty excited. I'm also kind of bummed because my parents said that I could go back to Oregon with her for a while, and it was cool with her parents, and everything was set, but now my mom is saying no so that kinda sucks. Well I got things to do so I will talk to you all later.
-Lucy-
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[01 Oct 2004|04:47pm] |
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Hey! Well me and Ashley are just listening to music, getting ready to leave to the mall. And then later I might be going to the movies with Megan. Today at school was pretty awesome, but it still was like ehh at the same time, but I don't care because I got smiles! If anyone understands that! Ok well there wasn't much going on today. I'll update later when there's more to say. Later
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[22 Sep 2004|03:22pm] |
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I woke up this morning and felt like crap. I'm really sick, blah! My mom wants to home school me for 6 months so that she can take me to a whole bunch of doctors, and my reponse to that, fuck no! But it sucks because it's not my choice, so this really sucks. Well I started feeling a little better around 2 and I was bored so I wrote a song, will I share this song with you? I really don't know. I'll think about it, but it's not really worth hearing, so whatever. Now i feel even worse from this morning, I just want to barf. That sounded weird but oh well. I have a lot of homework still from last night, I fell asleep and didn't finish it so yeah. Maybe I should start doing that..
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[19 Sep 2004|09:51am] |
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Sorry I haven't updated awhile, I am now because Jordan told me too lol. Well not a whole lot has been happening, it's all pretty boring. I'm so lonely at Royal it kind of sucks lol. But o well school just started so things can change. I was going to go over to Jordans to watch a movie last night, but I forgot about the whole living situation so that was kind of a bummer. I got something out of Jordans profile that I want to put on here.
"We would be silent, but it would be one of the best conversations ever..."
LUCY... that is one of the best things that u ever said! i remberr that day like it was yesterday... it was silent and r hearts were beating sooo fast... then we hear the knock on the door... IT WAS ALL OVER! :'(
Well I'm going to go.
Bye.
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[30 Aug 2004|02:36pm] |
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I've been waiting to update about this until I got the pictures. Well basically on one of Jordans last nights here her and Ashley spent the night. We went night swimming, made smores around the fire. And then we got bored and played dressup it was fun. Then after Sam came over and we hung out for a couple hours and then he had to go home. Then we watched the Olympics and went to bed. Overall it was fun..
( It's Dress Up Time Bitches! )
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[27 Aug 2004|12:40pm] |
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Well today is a good day. Woke up went to the doctors, was there for like 3 hours, but that wasn't the good part. Then I went to Royal to see if I made 6th period soccer, and I did! So I thought that was awesome, and i'm really happy about that. And my mom even bought me food, because I was really hungry after having all these needles in me ::Shivers:: I hate needles. Well later today I have practice at 5 and that is pretty much all I think. O yeah and I guess my arm got worse because it swelled and it hurts like a bitch, but other than that i'm just super.
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[24 Aug 2004|09:58pm] |
Science 9 - Swopes
P.E. - Snyder
Algebra ABCD 1 - Verry
English 9H - Gantka
Spanish 1 - Herman
Athletic Inj. - Andreolli
Hopefully I'll get into 6th period soccer, so if I do then me schedule with change...obvisously.
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[23 Aug 2004|05:07pm] |
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Hey
I had tryouts today for Royals soccer team. I hope I make 6th period soccer, if not I think my whole freshman year will suck :[
Well anyways, me and Cara got bored last night and we decided to make this flyer, she made it because i'm not so good at this stuff, but ain't she an artist! Well is anyone interested?
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[22 Aug 2004|10:20pm] |
I finally fixed this Livejournal. So i'm pretty happy about that, and i'll be using this one again.
I got to talk to Jordan tonight which was great! But parts of are convo made me cry... like these...
( Conversations )
I miss Jordan...
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| New Live Journal |
[06 Aug 2004|10:13pm] |
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Hey. I had to get a new LJ cuz this one is really messed up. So add my new one it's _vanished_
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[29 Jul 2004|10:04pm] |
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I stole this from Shannon, who stole it from someone else I think...Well tell me how you feel about me or if you have any secrets that you need or want to tell me..so please post and tell me...
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[29 Jul 2004|07:07pm] |
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Woah this whole customizing your Lj is really hard....i've been trying for hours and I haven't got much done, i'm such a computer wiz haha ya right...
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| STUD MUFFIN JR. IS HERE BIOTCH! |
[25 Jul 2004|02:25pm] |
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Hey ppl. Me n' Cara are chillin at my house.
Having fun doing nothin. Going to Starbucks soon. Last night was so
much fun! and this morning was great we went on adventures! i was soo
excited cuz it was the first time in a week that i was allowed out of
my house! so ima go cuz i'm allowed out of the house so were gunna go
find ourselves some adventures! -lucy n' cara
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[23 Jul 2004|09:19pm] |
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I'm bored. Ali and Greg are watching a movie that i've already seen so i don't wanna watch it. Greg ordered pizza so he can stay. I've been sick since last Friday, so I don't think that's very good, hopefully i'll get better if not then I don't really know what to say. My brother thinks I have Brain Inflammation, and I do have most of the sypmtons(sp?) so that sux, especially becuz if you don't get it treated you can die.. well ima go cuz i don't feel go so later
-Lucy
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[09 Jul 2004|04:09pm] |
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I saw King Arthur yesterday and it was pretty good, I don't know why, but I want to go see it again, anyone want to join me? Today is going kind of slow, but I still have a lot to do, I better get to it soon, because if I don't it's going to ruin my whole weekend. My Mom woke me up at like 9:30, so i'm tired because 9:30 is kind of early for me. You know what's a cool name? Demaris. "Hey Demaris what's up?", "Yo Demaris dawg wut up?". Lol Cara that was pretty funny, but no more remember so shh. Lol no I promise =). Oh and Cara don't forget to tell Leann ok? I have a 6 aside tournament this weekend, so that should be fun. I had to take Axel for shots yesterday and I saw Brandon so that was cool. Well bye.
-Lucy
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[05 Jul 2004|11:46pm] |
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Hey ppl wat's up? i'm really bored so i thought i'd update. Today was my b-day and omg it was soo crappy! urgh guys make me so err. They should all burn in hell(got it from darya). well let's just say it was a bad b-day, it's like no one seemed to care, o well it's almost over only got 11 mins. left thank god. i hung out with cara jordan and ashley the whole day it was fun, but soo much crap went on err. makes me so mad and frustrated. well i don't feel like talkin about this ne more. bye
-lucy
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| It's Lucy's Birthday |
[05 Jul 2004|12:27am] |
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Well...this is Cara updating for Lucy because i wanted to.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU SEXY MAMA STUD MUFFIN!
It's hard finding pics of just lucy...well thats (left to right) Lucy and Jordan and Me ::Aww..isn't she adorable! and doesn't that nose turn you on lmao!::
It's hard to tell but that is Lucy......it's the only picture i have of just her...
Okay...the rest of you don't need to read this..it is my message to Lucy...
YellowHandedBob, Not quite sure what I would do without you. You mean so much to me and have been such a big part in my life. You are one of the coolest and nicest people I have ever and will ever meet! Knowing that we have grown so close means a lot to me. And what is really sad is that I would trust you with my life! All those late nights chucking things at me and I still stuck around. By the way you can't see people in the dark! Just wanted to let you know that I Still See You, and I Love you!!!!
<3,
Stud Muffin Jr.
Okay well, I think this entry is long enough. So lets go and party hard.....
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[02 Jul 2004|09:29pm] |
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Hey people. Sorry I haven't updated in awhile. I've been out and about and haven't really been home. Yesterday was awesome! My friends threw my a surprise birthday party, oh my they scared me so bad when they opened the door, even Jordan jumped, and she knew about it, that loser just kidding I love you Jordan. Well my birthday is on Monday wewt wewt. People actually want to hang with me on my birthday. Hahaha i'm always like lonely on my birthday, but this year I wont be, because my friends are awesome. Tomorrow my family is coming over. I get to see my Uncle Joe, I hope he's doing better, even since my Aunt Dena passed away. Well I guess i'll see tomorrow. So much has changed, so fast. Everything is falling apart, I can't take it. Sometimes I just want to get out of here, be by myself. Have some Lucy time for myself. Then again i'm not so sure. Everything has been so mixed up and confusing. Everyone is leaving, and it's like so like ouch. Just got into this stupid fight with one of my best friends, he cussed me out, and now he wont even talk to me, mature huh? Well i'm going to go talk to you all later. Oh I had the coolest dream last night to. I know that was random but I just thought of it.
-Lucy
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